I wanted to be a Super Villain for a day, and my dreams came true.
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By Steven Underwood
Numb like the first time I said I hate you,
That’s what I am,
I worshipped the wrong words we shared;
I bent the knee on brown rice and glass
And acknowledged the kinship like
The pupper lapping sweetened water from a bowl.
Neglect my sorrows once, and I will come
Neglect my tears twice, and I follow
Neglect my heart thrice, cross it, and I will die
I hope those days are over
I pray that solace into my open palms
My bare lap
And my solemn dreams.
Then maybe I can finally feel
By Steven Underwood
You walk into a black wall and barely recognize that it’s built of brown bodies
And ask if something is the matter with how it is formatted.
There are arms mangled into the body, jabbing into broken ribs and closed mouths and shuttered eyes and pork-rolled tongues.
There is sweat dripping down their body in crimson, mingling with blood in a marriage of decay and debauchery and self-loathing.
You still wonder if something is the matter with how it is formatted.
You turn to the Asian pharmacist around the corner and ask him, and he has no answers and so you ask the Jewish librarian, and he ignores you outright. You ask the Hispanic barber and he does not want to speak your blistering white language on his pink tongue and you ask the Arabic teacher and he is afraid to answer because you wear a red hat. You ask every spectrum and color of the rainbow until the world is a searing maelstrom of every color and every pink, gooey tongue and every shade but black, until you return to the wall and patiently stare.
Then, you ask the wall. You open your mouth and speak.
“Why wall,” You say in a frantic manner. “Why are you joints connected and your foots in mouthes and your heels pressed to throat with the aggression of a boot, or a hammer or a world-smashing, all-ending fist of iron?”
The wall speaks in a powerful manner, in a warm tone that sounds like your father who abandoned, and the mother who sacrificed and the sister went ignored and the brother who protested nothing. “It is because, we cannot untangle from ourselves.”